the five centers of my universe

I have five centers in my universe. MKENM.
should I ever let any one of them down, I will have failed at my purpose in life
I feel very strongly about this, I am aching over this, I cry over this, I am staying up late over this.
I also have a twin planet,  a whole other world, we are melding, as we orbit around MKENM
right now, we are in the middle of a cosmic storm.
I am female, and with all that entails I feel deeply about what needs to be done, 
my twin planet is male, our views and reactions are like Venus and Mars
here on Earth we need to sleep on stuff, worlds apart, on the same orbit
I often wish I didn't feel so deeply
I wish I feel I didn't only have harsh words to say, I seek a peaceful place to speak from.... may my sleep bring that.