this dark cloud, it just won't let the light in.
all attempts are useless, communication is useless and misunderstandings are ugly.
I feel like I have failed at all I am working on.
work and family life are struggles, all I want to do is sleep.
have I been doing too much, not enough?
my body aches and my soul is tired.
this is depression, this is not what I want, I pray for some other fatal diagnosis.
then at least, no one can say I didn't do enough, or do the right thing.
then again, I am a smoker, so that is my choice...
all I feel and see are lose/lose situations.
I know I've been here before, I know the light does come back, and I won't feel this much longer.
there will be a tomorrow that I will be proud of... I've been here before.
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