So life is taking it's toll, 4 AM shift start causing serious sleep deprivation problems, I am moody, and make little sense. My Love threatens to sue the company I work for, "alienation of affection" due to my lack of a sex drive. At work 2 co-workers have committed suicide in the last 8 months, I found out a couple weeks ago of the latest victim, it has left me frazzled, thinking "that is my future with this company". I am taking a month off due to a recurring shoulder problem, a God-sent.
Yesterday after seeing my Doc, I drove to my Mother's house. She sold it last October, it looks strangely like the house when I moved in at 12, compared to how my mother left it. I am guessing they bought the house dirt cheap, they have done many renovations, landscaping, fresh paint and new windows. I stood there a while wondering if the house will be haunted, and what about the pet-cemetery in the yard?
I can see now, only a day later just how anxious I felt everyday. Today, I feel freedom, I have hope that I will find good things to do with my life. I just have to figure out what to be when I grow up.
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