too many stress at once....
there is just not enough time, I just don't have the energy I need to accomplish all I have to accomplish, I am afraid I cannot handle this now. Will I manage balancing work, family, me....? Back to school is already stressing me out. I know this feeling will pass, but I don't like my reaction to it. Why am I mood swinging now? grrrrr I guess I need a a couple good night sleeps, my lovers strong arms around me, and better planning everyday stuff. My love wrote me a beautiful poem, he makes me weep, on a regular basis, in a good way, I am grateful he is in my life, even if it is my crazy life.
Tuesday, 26 July 2011
Wednesday, 20 July 2011
exhaustion
it's been 3 weeks and a few days since I am back at work...working full-time SUCKS! (except for the pay)
my nerves are shot, sleep won't come, and it's too late for the sleep aid. I'm getting the hang of this new pace, most days. At work I have the same route, still learning ways of shortening my work day...but my accumulated sleep deficit is catching up to me emotionally. Add this damn heat wave, I want to explode like a rain storm after a hot and humid few days, I want to be the storm. I have too many frustrations, and worries, and a teenage daughter who is acting up. I need to thunder and lightning, I need to rain down on all this, and in the morning, I'll be the fresh crisp air.
In 9 days I'll have respite...for 14 glorious days of freedom, from the alarm clock....
my nerves are shot, sleep won't come, and it's too late for the sleep aid. I'm getting the hang of this new pace, most days. At work I have the same route, still learning ways of shortening my work day...but my accumulated sleep deficit is catching up to me emotionally. Add this damn heat wave, I want to explode like a rain storm after a hot and humid few days, I want to be the storm. I have too many frustrations, and worries, and a teenage daughter who is acting up. I need to thunder and lightning, I need to rain down on all this, and in the morning, I'll be the fresh crisp air.
In 9 days I'll have respite...for 14 glorious days of freedom, from the alarm clock....
Tuesday, 12 July 2011
Back to work for me
I started this new job way back in March, then Easter weekend I closed the car door on my thumb, I was off for 6 weeks, then there was the Postal strike, and a back to work law was passed and here I am....
I am praying to win the loto...life is overwhelming....stress at work...way too much lack of 8 straight hours of sleep, I am not a happy person without sleep...I am snippy.
I am grateful for my back rubs, foot rubs, and all rubs I am getting.
I like where I am working, I get to drive the mail truck downtown, and deliver mail that was stuck in the main office...yet not enough mail is getting out. All things considered I am doing ok for my day 13 at this new job. Today was a great day, I reached my goal of finishing my entire route in under 8 hours (the regular guys is able to do it within 5.5, or so it says in the books), this makes up for yesterday, when I had a mishap with a parked car...that delayed me an hour, then I hit traffic getting back to the office. I wonder how much longer I will stay at this Route 87? Being an on-call worker it can change week-to-week, and even day-to-day. Real life, full of ups and downs, one day I love this job, one day I don't...
The kids are doing ok with their full-time Mom now being a full-time worker, who is exhausted after work, and locks herself in her bedroom, and falls asleep before they do, and leaves for work before they wake. All for that dream, of us owning a house, adding my better half and his two daughters...I know it will happen.
2011 is going to full of changes, lots of preparing for 2012.
Good night.
I am praying to win the loto...life is overwhelming....stress at work...way too much lack of 8 straight hours of sleep, I am not a happy person without sleep...I am snippy.
I am grateful for my back rubs, foot rubs, and all rubs I am getting.
I like where I am working, I get to drive the mail truck downtown, and deliver mail that was stuck in the main office...yet not enough mail is getting out. All things considered I am doing ok for my day 13 at this new job. Today was a great day, I reached my goal of finishing my entire route in under 8 hours (the regular guys is able to do it within 5.5, or so it says in the books), this makes up for yesterday, when I had a mishap with a parked car...that delayed me an hour, then I hit traffic getting back to the office. I wonder how much longer I will stay at this Route 87? Being an on-call worker it can change week-to-week, and even day-to-day. Real life, full of ups and downs, one day I love this job, one day I don't...
The kids are doing ok with their full-time Mom now being a full-time worker, who is exhausted after work, and locks herself in her bedroom, and falls asleep before they do, and leaves for work before they wake. All for that dream, of us owning a house, adding my better half and his two daughters...I know it will happen.
2011 is going to full of changes, lots of preparing for 2012.
Good night.
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